Well it all got off to a bad start yesterday didn’t it? Today is my first ‘clear’ day for a considerable amount of time. So far I feel fine. I have not had a ‘herbal’ all day and I am trying to keep things like that – but I have no idea whether I can or whether I will. That being said this is where you will find out my innermost thoughts on the topic.
Reading my musings from yesterday (which at the time I thought were profound and amusing) now seem dismal and confused.
Commit to paper (or blog) to get it all out of the head and keep track of my state of mind – sound advice indeed from a Mother Superior.
I am at a point where I could spiral out of control if I don’t take charge in all of the following areas.
1. Health and HIV
2. Sex and Impotence
3. Relationships
i. Matthew
ii. Becky
iii. Danny
iv. Karen
4. My Fame
5. Breadcrumbs TV
6. Sticky Productions
7. Chemicals
8. Money
9. Physicality and looks
All these in my life are at a critical(ish) stage. Procrastination is my middle name, which makes credit cards look rather weird, and has stolen a good year of my life that, at nearing forty, I cannot afford to waste.
As I slide into the world of celebrity I will keep you posted on those celebs I come across - which is the lightherated and fun part of my experience in the media (for the reader) but right now I feel is a nasty, dark and vicious place.
Hercules was a zero who became a hero according to Walt. I am aware that he is a cartoon and way out of my league, but it's nice to have a goal however unreachable - in fact I feel that I have more chance of becoming pen and ink than I do a media mogul - but don't let me colleagues at Breadcrumbs TV know that.
I shall take this process slow and make sure I write the things that need to be said – watch this space and wish me luck. Here we go!
