Zero 2 Hero?

Well it all got off to a bad start yesterday didn’t it?  Today is my first ‘clear’ day for a considerable amount of time.  So far I feel fine. I have not had a ‘herbal’ all day and I am trying to keep things like that – but I have no idea whether I can or whether I will.  That being said this is where you will find out my innermost thoughts on the topic.

Reading my musings from yesterday (which at the time I thought were profound and amusing) now seem dismal and confused.

Commit to paper (or blog) to get it all out of the head and keep track of my state of mind – sound advice indeed from a Mother Superior.

I am at a point where I could spiral out of control if I don’t take charge in all of the following areas.
 
1. Health and HIV
2. Sex and Impotence
3. Relationships
              i. Matthew
             ii. Becky
            iii. Danny
             iv. Karen
4. My Fame
5. Breadcrumbs TV
6. Sticky Productions
7. Chemicals
8. Money
9. Physicality and looks

All these in my life are at a critical(ish) stage.  Procrastination is my middle name, which makes credit cards look rather weird, and has stolen a good year of my life that, at nearing forty, I cannot afford to waste.

As I slide into the world of celebrity I will keep you posted on those celebs I come across - which is the lightherated and fun part of my experience in the media (for the reader) but right now I feel is a nasty, dark and vicious place.

Hercules was a zero who became a hero according to Walt.  I am aware that he is a cartoon and way out of my league, but it's nice to have a goal however unreachable - in fact I feel that I have more chance of becoming pen and ink than I do a media mogul - but don't let me colleagues at Breadcrumbs TV know that.

I shall take this process slow and make sure I write the things that need to be said – watch this space and wish me luck.   Here we go!

Maybe one of the last days hiding behind the unfolding curtain of doom - the herbal, or pond to give it its more comical term.

It's a must that I address my thoughts - "Good day to you Dear Thought" because right now things can go in all sorts of directions and I am now unclear of who I am and what do I have the ability to do. I don't mean in a 10pm, Sci-Fi Channel, best ratings, girl from Ally McBeal, Jack Coleman is fit, kind of way but with the fame issue - do I pursue that?

Things really can only get better and I need to keep track of where I am in regards to various topics - As you, the reader, can tell I am incoherent and I have a lot to learn about this process - in so many ways (including spell-check - you will be glad to see I didn't go for the obvious joke.)

Here is my list of areas to address and keep abreast off in an orderly and Monica way. Rules help control the fun. Those 6 have really replaced by real friends - I can trust what they are going to tell me and pre-empt their responses. I Know You So Well

Eek Matthew is here with the boys! Hold that thought!

Bear Your Soul? Is that the same as spiders in your teeth? Ah Lucy the slut - happy days. The ramblings of a mad man or the memories of a good time gal? There are no consonants for the barrow boy - it would hurt that little too much day in and day out and we forgive them this. And oh how we laughed.

You want mental health? Well mental health costs and right here is where I start paying - in words!

Herbal is upon us! We rejoice - we avoid closeness and wallow in the shell.

Without having a starting place this is as best as any. Fasten your seatbelt it's going to be a bumpy ride for me.